"You have a future."

Yesterday I was feeling so sick, but I felt improving better little by little after I drank a lot of warm liquids and some cold liquids. Today I feel little bit better, and still I drink the liquids. Okay, I finally started to research on what religious people view on future. Here is my comment on what to do for the future:

Some group says, “You have a future.” But the question is, do you have a future? You don’t expect a future. Why? Because of in my experience, my future is already destroyed. The group had interfered my plan for the future. They want me to follow the steps of their future which upset me. So why are they have a right to stop my dream? They should have going away. I made my own plan for the future and I want to achieve my future. But my time of success have still not yet to come. Also, they already destroyed my life. It’s like I’m dead never have a chance to have a long-term artist career, a nice house, a nice car, a gentle husband and, have children together. Like they don’t want me to have a life in this system where we are. They want me to have a life in only new system. I scoffs. I’m so mad! They should show respect to everyone’s right to follow the steps of their own future. I have other good question to consider. Is future for individual or the group? Listen to what the society said about what to do for the future, “…depends on how you view it and plan for it.” Do you see that “you”? It does not say “our organization.” I don’t get how the society’s system works. Why should I keep following the steps of the group’s future? They should have going away. Today group is forgetting about the old saying, “You have a future” and “depends on how you view it and plan for it” causes me to feel disgraced. That’s not right! How do you feel about someone who took your future if that happened to you?

Why not follow the one noted inventor observed? What observation? “We should all be concerned about the future because we will have to spend the rest of our lives there.” Why not? But destroy someone’s future? Oh, please. Sincerely yours, Loiriam. PS. Read this related to my other blog post.

Chapter One: Should You Give Up Your School Life?

As a previous blog, I wrote that note last year September 3, 2013. It's about how excitement the kids go back to school and how excitement I keep educating myself. Now here is the new article. It will tell you how school is value to everyone's life. 

The successful science teacher had graduated 

from her college and have teaching degree.

This photo is taken by the spring of 2008 where

she took a field trip with her young students. 

Imagine my life without going to school for twenty years, what would I do today? I would learn NONE! It is no excuse for not going to school. Why not pardon?  Because of communication with people is key, know what to do, and have assertion to success. If I did not go to school, what would happen to me today? I would act much knowing nothing and become dumber and dumber. And the worst part is, I'm a Stupid woman in the whole world! That is no fun, no funny, and no pardon for not going to school. Would you want to be like me if I never go to school for about twenty years? What's your answer? Think of that. It is okay to outright yourself and share your feeling about school rather you like or not like. If you like school, cool! But if you do not like school, then your have to go through with an endurance. If you dropout the high school at age 16 or before graduation day, what would happen to you? You will have no job, right? If you did dropout your high school and you frustrate that you cannot find a job, will you go and get GED classes? 

For what is the reason of giving up your school life? You can't pass the tests? You can't make the good grades? You can't achieve the awards? Bullying? The kids make fun of you? School shooting? Teachers are hard to get along with you? And, other reasons? These reasons I will explain the next following chapters, okay? Now we focus on chapter one. Does it surprise you of the numbers of youths choose not to go to school at all? No surprise at the teachers are impossible to teach the chronically absented students. And they are too impossible to know better than the teachers because the teachers have teaching experience. 

The Education is Value

Do you realize that you need an education? If so, then why? You reasoned the ability to lecture the people of what you had learned at school. Your education is value to prepare you for a successful adult life. Take the good example of wise King Solomon said about school: "knowledge and thinking ability". The school can help you nurture and grow your ability to think. And it can also help you to analyze and create the productive ideas. The school does make you use your mind. The truth is, school supplies you to study language arts, math, social studies, science, biology, geography, home economic and such more. You think that these are not relevant to your life. But read a good guide book that Barbara Mayer wrote. The name of it is "The High School Survival Guide". It will tell you how school is important to your life. Also read the other book called "The Enduring Effects of Education", too.

School and Employment

Learning in school can lead you to your future employment. If you do not go to school at all, watch at what will happen to your life. You understand that quitting school is poor. And you understand that you learn that hard way. A lot of times you've applied for jobs and you couldn't get hired because of you do not have a high school diploma or college degree. It is obviously the students who really learn the basic skills such as reading level will have the better job opportunities. 

You are better

Know your strengths and weaknesses benefit you. In school you learned how to work under pressure, how to take a test and how to express yourself. Your school proves more powerful have trained you the right way as disciplined you and get trained your mind creativity.

For that reason, it makes good sense for you to take full advantage of your school years. How can you do that? Let's study at school. And the next chapter will explain how you can improve your grades by maybe tomorrow. 

The Finalized Fifth Chapter of Grief: Is Grief Normal?

Today is the finalized fifth entry of this blog that I wrote about grief is normal if you think that way. Here is the story below:

Grief is of course true story to everyone who experienced mourned their loved ones death. They know that the loved ones cannot bring back to life again, but the loved ones will reside on life by God. What about you? Is grief normal for you to grieve the death of your loved one? You are a human. You can feel anger, confusion, and fear. Also, you can't hold back tears. Really, it is naturally you react emotionally when someone you love dies. Remember Jesus' close friend, Lazarus died? Jesus wept. 

When your loved one died, you may feel confused. You was hopeful that a person is alive. It's true that you tend to deny that the death has occurred. But that person is dead. Get over is not so easy. Because of it is good that you remember God made man to live, not to die.

How can you shares your feelings about the death of your loved one? You deal with them openly. Not to isolate yourself if you are opened and share your feelings. Find a good listener, a friend who will understand that your many feelings are normal reactions to your bitter grief.

What Hope That Comforts You?

John chapter five explains a hope of the resurrection on Life. It does not means to eliminate grief but, you will remember your loved one. As a result, your pain of losing someone you love will gradually recovery and know that your loved one will reside in paradise as Luke 23.43.

The end of chapter, but more is, we are a human. We do still have our feelings to share more than just hating ourselves, depression, loneliness, shyness, and grief. 

Chapter Two: Why Do I Feel So Depressed?

Today is the second entry of this blog that I wrote about depression. Here is the story below:

My story is so SAD. I experience the depression for long time since I was about preteen. Why is that situation always happen? First of all, I was half third generation. My grandmother had severe depression. She was suffered until she did apart in 2002. The same as I still battle against depression and attend to see my behavioral therapist. I'm learning how to handle the ups and downs, and trying to get people care. It is not really easy, and I end up in the suicidal thought. No, I want living because life is precious. I should thanks to God for Life. Life is beautiful and life is too short if I intend to kill myself. The truth is, suicide is not the answer. But the famous beloved comedian, Robin Williams was different. He was trying to win his battle against depression, but thing did not work out and that causes him to end of his life by himself on August 11, 2014. It's so SAD to see how Robin had to take his life. Although I'm not necessary to think about suicide and plan to end my life. I don't do drugs. I don't drink and I don't smoke. I'm still fighting against depression.

Have you notice why do I feel so depressed? Three reasons I expresses to you about my depression experience:

1. I feel worthless when I don't make more friends. How come I don't have many friends? The friends and I are different. Their actions and my action are not the same. Their stories and my story are not the same. That is the big main problem in my life. I should have fitting their actions and stories, not my action and story. I'm getting to do what friends are, not what me is. Being me as focus on myself is selfish by not paying attention and not talking to the friends. This is what I'm called myself  "An Unfriended Loiriam". Do you know what that means? It means that I don't friend with anyone. This is not healthy relationship with between me and the friends.

2. I feel anxiety when I don't stop worrying about anything. What do I worry about? I worry about not having enough money to pay the bills, I worry about not finishing my own projects, I worry about more and more. It is like no life. Life is not worrying. Life is in people who have God with as not need to worry about anything. I was an Atheist when I was a little girl. I rebelled against my mother about forcing me to believe in God.  Until when I learn that Romans 1:20 explains about 'no excuse if you don't believe in God had made everything on earth.' I made mistake for not believing in God and I have asked Him to forgive me. He approved me and so on I do still believe in God. Also, another problem is I have panic attack. That is kind of disease I have worse than anxiety. It's no fun to have that! I still battle against panic attack. 

3. I feel angry at a person who insulted me. After she had insulted me, I began to feel angry and obsess about her. Manage my anger is really not easy.

In above of all those reasons, how can I reduce depression? It takes a long time to reduce depression because it's not going to heal quickly. However, there is a hope for me if I keep walking outside and observing the nature and if I use with the fact, not with my thought, then I will get help to feel better. And about the food that I eat, I eat healthy and drink a lot of water. Plus, exercise is the best tip for me to do like walking and observing the nature, the other side is to do jogging, jumping on the trampoline, aerobics, dancing, or practicing yoga will help me feel better and free of charges. These are free healthy way to do than going to see the doctor and psychiatrist. Also, if I has a good friend who she or he is interesting in my welfare, then I can express my feeling. She or he will help me feel well. 

The next chapter 'loneliness' I will post tomorrow.